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Mar. 24th, 2008 10:19 amStill on schedule for the gamma knife radiation treatment. I can only hope this is the end of the tumor once and for all. I'm not looking forward to it, yet have hope for the procedure all the same. I'm a confused wreck.
I need a vacation from everything. The solo canoe / camping trip is looking more and more to be the thing I need. Three days, or five days? I don't know yet. I need a small amount of time not working full time and spending the remaining time as a full time care provider. Once we are a couple of weeks out from the procedure, I'll know if I can go or not.
Only went ice fishing twice this season, each in a 2-3 hour window, caught and kept one lonely crappie. Only one airsoft game under my belt in recent memory and it kinda sucked as it was freezing cold. My only recreation has been beer drinking and video games, not the best lifestyle, I'll admit to that.
For example tonight I leave work at 5:00pm, go home and make dinner, when done with dinner I need to go to the pharmacy, then to the grocery store, then home, then get LeAnn and Rowan to bed, get LeAnn's evening meds ready. Then I might catch the evening news, become disgusted by dubya's stupidity, run the tread mill, play a video game, drink a beer. Me time does not start most evenings until 9:00-10:00pm, then I stay up too late and don't get enough sleep.
My fathers passing has added to the stress level a bit, but not as much as you might think. He generally was in hiding up North, hiding from reality for the most part. Even when that 100+ year old pine tree fell in that storm a few years back he never lifted a finger to remove the tree. He did repair the fuel system on one of the chainsaws, but I think that was mostly soaking it in some sea-foam. A loved father, yes he was, a role-model, not so much.
I need a vacation from everything. The solo canoe / camping trip is looking more and more to be the thing I need. Three days, or five days? I don't know yet. I need a small amount of time not working full time and spending the remaining time as a full time care provider. Once we are a couple of weeks out from the procedure, I'll know if I can go or not.
Only went ice fishing twice this season, each in a 2-3 hour window, caught and kept one lonely crappie. Only one airsoft game under my belt in recent memory and it kinda sucked as it was freezing cold. My only recreation has been beer drinking and video games, not the best lifestyle, I'll admit to that.
For example tonight I leave work at 5:00pm, go home and make dinner, when done with dinner I need to go to the pharmacy, then to the grocery store, then home, then get LeAnn and Rowan to bed, get LeAnn's evening meds ready. Then I might catch the evening news, become disgusted by dubya's stupidity, run the tread mill, play a video game, drink a beer. Me time does not start most evenings until 9:00-10:00pm, then I stay up too late and don't get enough sleep.
My fathers passing has added to the stress level a bit, but not as much as you might think. He generally was in hiding up North, hiding from reality for the most part. Even when that 100+ year old pine tree fell in that storm a few years back he never lifted a finger to remove the tree. He did repair the fuel system on one of the chainsaws, but I think that was mostly soaking it in some sea-foam. A loved father, yes he was, a role-model, not so much.
